28 January 2004

With the touch of a button and the tap of a keypad - the world looses its morals and relequishes its soul hope for redemption. But what does that matter to the general populous, right? Well - I suppose I shant go into a huge rant about this, that, or the other. I'll just drop a few lines of intellegent gestures about my day and leave the world at that.

It has been so very interesting. Had a horrible day; didn't get to eat my lunhc warm; blah, blah, blah.

So I guess that is enough of my moaning, whining, and complaining. Personally, I am much annoyed. *laughs mildly* Oh well....Cheers to Becket and his "Waiting for Godot"!

That's all I've got. Good-bye and Good-night.

26 January 2004

Well. Another day passes over me, and I just lie there - thinking, wondering, dreaming...

So that is enough of that semi-etherial language to make a drowning college student throw their ketchup packets at a professors head or see yet again the meager lunch they inadvertantly had barely no time to cram down their throats. So I will continue on that leg no longer.

But I do have to say that I am so proud of me - but I ain't the only one either. I managed to accomplish a fairly "decent" [by my terms] 7 page paper between the hours of 1:00 am and 11:00 am with five hours of sleep tossed in for good measure. Not to mention that I 'read' two chapters and wrote a 4 page review essay on it in a total of two hours. I am amazingly charmed with myself.

Whoo hoo! Go Gothika! Anyway; I am just sitting here and chilling until 8 when I must bounce to a meeting and then delve my head back into more reading, journaling, and wondering if I have just gone completely looney. But oh well - the week won't last a lifetime, will it?

Gosh, I hope not. So must jet now. It has been stellar *wink*

24 January 2004

Well today is the big day of the ober martini - I am so excited! See, just look at this excitement oozing from my very aura and the wide-eyed expression ceasing to stop similing. SEE IT! SEET IT!

Umm, well that is really enough of that. To be all the more honest - I can't exactly say that I am so very happy about this *excursion*. I don't want to go to the lousy opera because of that four letter word: "must", which is involved. In addition, the banquet is a sort of looming judge in the back of my mind - calling out "damnation to your world" behind my back. What is with that?

Oh well, I am hoping that the opera won't be so lousy and the banquet will be a smash - but right now, I'm just in no mood for either. Frankly, I want to just sit here and dote over my own agenda while spewing out the occasional philophical rant. In fact, I would find much more enjoyment in being a bump on a log right about now than having to be shoved into the cold and brutal world of being "social".

Gosh, sometimes I really hate being "social"! Not that I intently despise socializing - oh no. The truth is that I hate being shoved into a crowded room, with a microphone in my hand and demanded to sing Barbara Streizan (can't spell that worth beans!) to a crowd of noisily chewing idiots. That is the idea that being "social" calls to mind - and a weekend full of that, ending in a paper I have absolutely no desire nor mind to write, well frankly it makes me feel just a little pissier than I would perfer for a weekend evening. Curse the gods of weekend-dom. They have ruined me again. Foul Fiends!

Oh well. I guess all I can really retaliate with is that I feel as though the weekend demons should be drug into the streets of Paris, run over by Parisians AND tourists, then trampled over by American hotdog-eaters at some stupid football game. And to finish it offf, every college student in the universe should get their own by simply planting a well-aimed and swift kick in their ribs. There, that is all I have to say about the weekend demons. May they suffer greatly for being thought-up!

Farewell for now [regretfully I must again go and be "social" in a somewhat civilized light - curse civilization!].

21 January 2004

Wishlist

These are items that I want consistently. I figure, if you haven't got any ideas of what to get me for some reason/occasion/just because I'm brilliant - you can look here for some very simple ideas. It's mostly self-explanitory

But for those bits that aren't, allow me a bit of explanation. First, none of the following lists are in any particular order. If you want to know what I want more or most, you'll have to ask me. Second, any item in italics signifies that I'm unsure I actually want it. Ask me about these items before purchasing. Everything else is free game ;) Other than that - Enjoi.


-Emo Bear : small red
-Bleeding Heart : small black
-Piece of Meat : small red
-Miss Scarlet in the Hall with the revolver : small brown
-Room with a View : small brown
-Caged : small black

-Diskworld Series: Terry Pratchett
-Wicked
-Thief Lord
-Silver Boy: McNish
-The Baker's Boy
-Ender's Shadow, Shadow of the Hegemon, Shadow Puppets, Shadow of the Giant: Orson Scott Card
-Dark Tower Series (book two on): Stephen King
-Dune: Frank Herbert
-Time Traveler's Wife(UK cover): Niffenegger
-Faerie Books: Brian Froud
-War of the Flowers(UK cover): Tad Williams
-Shanara Series: Terry Brooks
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-Fullmetal Alchemist manga
-Cowboy Bebop manga
-Sin City comics

-Spirited Away
--[priority]--
-Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
-Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy
-Memento
-Napoleon Dynomite
-Citizen Kane
-Minority Report
-LOTR 1 [extended]
-Star Wars Series (THX - whole series)
--[secondary]--
-Hitch
-Constantine
-Batman Begins
-The Longest Yard
-Rush Hour 1
-Ace Ventura:Nature Calls
-Finding Nemo
-Saraha
-Shrek 1 & 2
-Spiderman 2
-------[series]
-Harvey Birdman
-Vampire Hunter D (and Bloodlust movie)
-Fullmetal Alchemist
-Invader Zim
-Escaflowne (and movie)
-Cowboy Bebop
-Lost
-House

-LOTR soundtrack(all three)
-Dashboard Confessional: Swiss Army Romance, Places You Have Come to Fear the Most
-Jimmy Eat World: Self Titled
-Linkin Park: Live in TX, Linkin Park and Jay Z
-Romeo + Juliet Soundtrack
-Batman Begins Soundtrack

List established 2.10.05 [euro format]. Date changed for stylistic reasons.
Grow accustom to this.

19 January 2004

Well today was somewhat of another downer. The day was cold at the Santa Ana zoo and there were no giraffes *tears*, but I am sure that I will live. Although I do have to say that I got my "Acapoco" Fajita which I was much craving at Red Robin on Friday. Thus, the day eventually blanaced itself out.

Also, I figured out a way to swing in Chris' fam's hamic in OC without rubbing the rope or hitting the bar or shelf behind me. It made me feel mighty and strong.

Later I had an epiphany about my new musical idea and hacked out some of the details in my mind - I'm pretty excited, but we all know how these things end up going *blech*. But I hope I can FINALLY follow this clever little ditty through to existance...Go Me! So for now, that is all I really have to say

Boy, I just noticed that if you never knew anything about me and was just looking for a good time by reading this blog - you would really be bummed out of your mind. It's just a landfill of my daily events...BORING! Oh well, here it is for what it probably isn't worth anyway ;0)

PS. Don't even care to bother changing the date when it's this early anymore...it just is not worth the time it takes to actually think about this stuff and then find some clever way to explain why my twisted mind works like it does. So from now on - DEAL!

PS2. Update, as long as I can get the tickets - the Winter Banquet is a go again. Chris is sending me with Felisa - YEAY! The evil insinuated gods of nothingness and desputance smile upon my weak amebiod framework of life once again.

17 January 2004

Interesting day it has been - interesting weekend. While friday was the biggest downer of the week due to sheer boredum and being caught in a darkening room before it is really sensible to turn on the light - Saturday has smiled upon me with yummy Los Amigo's burritos, a fun-filled day of Library shopping, joining, and hopping; all closed out with a deliciously home-cooked meal by my "bud" Chrispy ,a game of Canasta half w/Bob and half unfinished, and a wonderful cup of instant latte that made me feel all looney.

To be short (as if I wasn't that already) it was a nice, relaxing day and I had a good time. I have to say that I'm glad we didn't go to the Living Desert and just hung out instead. Plus, the weekend will be more fun-filled when we go to the Santa Ana (I think it is that one) Zoo tomorrow w/Karen and Ted. I'm just gonna have a lovely time - aminals are just too cute to gawk at ;0)

So anywho - in summary, Friday was more like Fry-day and today has been much goodness. I got a bunch of books for like $2.50 [Corona library has a GREAT book-sell: check t out] and rented CDs for 7 days. We had a very nice time just chillin'. I'm glad Chris thought of if as an alternative to the Huntington Library. So I suppose that is my update. I'll keep the lovely blogging world posted. Stay chilly!

PS. I again am changing the date of this log written on 1/18 to 17 because it is midnight and should still be the 17th to me! So yeah.

16 January 2004

Oh, almost forgot - the moronic gods of fate and doom have smiled their sick little heads down on me - I may be going to the Winter banquet after all. But only if it all works out.

I really hope destiny does not destroy my perfect plans yet once again. Who gave that useless hack of flesh the idea that she could do such horrid things to such sweet people anyway.

Demonic forces - ruin them all! End their reign! Recover our lives from the devish cads!

PS. I'm in a lovely mood this afternoon, just in case anyone had the gaul to wonder.
Today is a major mundane day. I'm bored, it's cold - and of course the one day out of the whole god-forsaken week that its cold - I have my legs uncovered! Curse the world and its sense of irony which ttaunts my poor existance daily. All who are so crual and evil towards innocent souls must pay - or perrish! The Fiends!

Well, I suppose that is enough angry ranting for now. I supose that I just want to do something but there is no one to do anything with - curse weekends when everyone is gone. And of course Life spites me because it is the only dang weekend I can stay here. I really, especially hate the world and life right now. It just needs to burn up in a tiny little hole so that I must not bear the agony of its existance any longer.

Foolish imebeciles who run this infernal place. I despise them all!

15 January 2004

Hmph, well it has been another horrible "ober" thursday and my brain feels particularly drained from it! Not to mention the cheese ravioli which might as well have been filled with fish eggs, because well it sort of tasted that way. But that really is quite irrelevant to the nastiness of which this day really has gone on with.

To begin the horridness, it was a Thursday and I was just all hubered out - but still the day must come to its own close I suppose. Then I went w. friends to Starbucks but K. was the most unresponsive blob I have ever seen him be. I don't think that things are going well - but then who am I to really say, right?

So then the world just keeps on crashing down because I am tired and really don't care if I never see my bed again, can't figure out how to make any frickin' comments link to my blog, and I AM NOT GOING TO MY WINTER BANQUET because of the opera and Chris's recording class. So my general feeling from life is simply this:

Either life sucks harder than a Hoover or blows chunks worse than a Hoover on super-power reverse!

So there is my "ober" life philosphy of the day. Take it or leave it for what it's worht - I know I always do.

PS. to make things worse still, I have Pygmalion hanging over my head like a bad light fixture in a cheap rent-by-hour motel where the cockroaches only stay away until that fixture falls on your head and knocks you out cold.

Lovely thoughts of the day, eh?...."Read Hot Chocolate - it might make you a little less temperal and therefore make the world a better place for you and for me and the entire Back Bay race" <--random quote from myslef.

Hmm can't have to "PS"s now can we. Going to call this one:

PS2. (thats right, Just like the Playstation - get over it!) I am changing the date on this one from the day it was actually written (16) to this date, simply because it was so late that it seemed like the 15th and because I had too many posts under the 16th. SO THERE!

14 January 2004

Well, where on earth do I start? I suppose the only place *to* start is at the beginning. But I guess my trouble isn't that, but where is the beginning from which I ought to start? Maybe the best way to begin this journey is by telling a story.

This is the story of Ping and Pong, the goldfish to which this Blog has been sincerely dedicated. The story of Ping and Pong begins something sort of like this:

It was July and the Orange County fair was in full swing. It was my second time going that year, and a recent reconcilliation made the time all the more fun and carefree. Pacing the fair for the third year in a row, I felt all of the years past melt into the current experience. Beauty, joy, laughter surrounded me like nothing else in the world.

We strode through the food stands, the rides, and the carnival before I saw what my heart covetted more than anything else. Before me in tiny plastic tanks with magnificently brilliantly colored rocks and cheap plastic tops, there swam a bright orange sea of opportunities. Once my eye was caught, memories of my fish-years passed before my eyes in a flash. No matter how much money or futile effort it was going to cost - I had to have at least one of these golden treasures before mine eyes.

Yelping like a child in a toystore, I yanked my companion to the booth and pointed eagerly. Lookin up at my companion with bright blue eyes full of fishie fins swimming gracefully through my soul, I tenderly asked "Can we?"

That sealed the deal. Whatever the number of ping-pong balls had to be lost - I would have my friend. The money was laid down on the counter and a few beat-up ping-pongs were laid before our eyes. Taking his best shots, my companion scored enough to attain me my treasure. As I stared down at the small tanks with brilliant colors, I carefully chose my new friend. Yet to my dismay - that was not what I had won. In shock, I glanced below the tanks and in little cups I saw more beauties desperate for more space. My heart went out and seeing the beautiful silver flash before my eyes, I chose my first, "Pong".

Seeing the small dish would not last the day, my companion laid down more money. I stared in anxious anticipation, but the shots missed. Oh how my heart bled to see my dear in one of those beautiful tanks - the one I had earlier deemed worthy. Oh how my tiny heart did break at that moment. In fear, I trembled but made a move to take my "Pong" with me and pray he live through the day.

Then ceasing in my steps, the strange carnival lady came over and I heard my companion speak to me, "Which one do you want?"

In shock, my heart leapt into my throat. Could it be, could the tiny tank really be mine? Supressing another yelp of joy, I carefully looked over the tiny treasure chests of life. But I had deemed the little tank with blue rocks my prize. Pointing and directing, my tiny tank was laid before me. In it swam a little golden joy with tiny black tips coloring his fins. "Ping" would be his name.

Joyously, the two were mine though I had only expected one. Tenderly placing "Pong" into the tiny tank with "Ping", we went about our day. The fair was filled with much more fun for me and my companion, but my two little prizes were the best of the day - even exceeding "Lucky", my amazing hot purple dragon whom my companion won by a struck of ingenius luck.

***

Yet the story does not end there. In my dwelling, I brought my two new living mates. For a time they lived peacefully in the tiny tank while I made efforts to bring home my fishbowl from ages past. Once I finally got it back to my home, I gingerly placed both "Ping" and "Pong" in the bowl. Yet, only days later disaster broke out.

There was anamosity between "Ping and "Pong" for the first visible time. After a fight (which now looking back may have been an attempt at dangerous flirtation, since "Ping" is in fact a female), which I did not think my beauties were capable of, I had to segregate them. Placing "Pong" in the tiny little tank which had been his home, I prayed for his wounds to heal. Yet only a few short days past and he passed from my world. Tragically I had been away, but my beautiful silver treasure knew my love and went in peace. Still living was the spirited Ping.

From tiny tank to fish bowl, he lived for several months - until Christmas came. Then it was not only eultide cheer for myself, but also for my tiny "Ping". After nearly outgrowing his fish bowl (and his beautiful black tips), I was christened with a five-gallon fish tank. After a drop in Towers kitchen, which stunned my poor dear, but could not kill him - he lives on in his new upgraded home.

Still the most spirited goldfish I have ever known, and certainly strange enough to be called my own, and a passion to live on like no other fish I ever met - "Ping" swims about in a beautiful purple fish tank which will soon be graced with other swimming treasures, which I hope he will get along with better than with my dear "Pong", whom I dearly and constantly miss.