24 January 2008

Rain, rain...

The rain makes everything go slower. Cars, business, life - everything, except my mind. As if thoughts mingle in the wind and water, falling every second with the tumoult of drops coming down out of the clouds -- yes, that's how it feels. Ideas, vague feelings of them, falling like drops from clouds of idealism or superfluousness or just the same old routine day-in, day-out. Grey dark ominous clouds these thoughts have a hard time falling from in California.

As if this high desert valley affects the mind, too. Forms it, shapes it, until it is as dry, full of hapless, lifeless shrubs of ideas that give birth to nothing.

Speaking of birth...But that is still for another day. For now, thoughts - concepts - notions fall like rain.

I think I am beginning to understand how badly I need to study philosophy.
That won't be cheap. Not in any sense.

09 January 2008

Bitterness is still so ugly

'Schools teach you to imitate. If you don't imitate what the teacher wants you get a bad grade. Here, in college, it was more sophisticated, of course; you were supposed to imitate the teacher in such a way as to convince the teacher you were not imitating, but taking the essence of the instruction, and going ahead with it on your own. That got you A's.'


So, I suppose in some itsy-bitsy way, I am sorry that I didn't rewrite Pamela, that I didn't follow you in the ways you would have wanted me to. That I wasn't simply another imitation.

Then again, Rewind truly is mine.
And no-one else's.

08 January 2008

Rating System

! = must see/must read (artist/social value)

++ = quality/above par

+ = worthwhile/good

~ = mediocre/average

- = no good/below par

-- = skip it/rubbish

_ = too early to tell

[ ] = with Art