Never have

I can be quiet. I can be still. I can listen, and observe, and think.
And not speak.

Try not to exist, not to be noticed, not to be much. Follow all the lines in the grain with my eyes - not tracing them with my hands. Hover my heart just high enough above you - close enough for you to feel its warmth. But I won't ever touch you.

Know you, but never hold you.
Hold you, but never have you.
Have you, but never know you.

So I'll be quiet. I'll be still. I'll listen, and observe, and think.
But I won't speak.

And I'll never have you.

So burn me up inside. Set my fire all alight. Let me flash and twirl and fly. Let me dance for just a little while.
Then let me flicker, simmer, die.

Because I'll never have you.

-RK