sigh...again

Almost another sunday, another mother's day.

I'd be happy excpet I have a headache, except I'm miserable, except I'm sick of doing things I don't want to do, except that I'm impatient, except that its too warm, except that I wish life were different - maybe five years from now and I could be happy...

sigh....again.

life...

...

miserable existence, bated breath that doesn't come to fruition, dreams that fade before the dawn, nightmares living, pain filling the air with grey stillness...

Why can't I live, dream, breathe, be...

sigh

maybe life is better as an enigma ... ...

-RK